Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Chapter Twenty-Four (Why)

Previously, on "Memoirs Of A City Girl":
Ch. 23 (Take A Bow)
-Even though I went to work the next day, my doctor sent me home with antibiotics and painkillers.
-On the way home, I realized that I still loved Brad and wanted to work things out with him.
-I saw his car parked outside, so I was eager to find out if he still wanted to be with me.
-To my horror, I found Brad having sex with Naveah in our bed.
-I was so shocked and pissed off that I beat the shit out of her.
-I ran out of the condo with Brad begging me to come back.
-Luckily, I got into a cab just in time.
-I found myself on the ground in front of the Appaloosa hospital.
-I found out that I fainted.
-After seeing Brad there, I sprinted to my truck, leaving him behind.

*Strong language. sexual references*

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Location: Adventure Landing
Date: Wednesday, 10/26/11
Time: 12:20 p.m.

I can't believe it.  That motherfucker actually found me.  Just when I managed to tuck away the painful memories into the deepest, darkest corners of my mind, he shows up out of nowhere.  I was getting used to my life here.  I was starting to meet new people.  I finally found the peace that I desperately sought.  Now it feels like everything just happened yesterday as he ripped off the stitches that held my heart together, leaving it gaping open again. Raw, bleeding, throbbing in excruciating pain.  The whole week that I spent here trying to start over, trying to pick up the pieces, has been thrown out the window.  It is day one all over again, and the wound is just as fresh.

This place was the only thing on my mind when I floored the gas pedal in front of the hospital.  I heard the water calling me somehow.  Like a mother with open arms, it patiently waits for me to find it.  I'm here.  I need you.  Please make the pain go away.

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But the cool breeze gently caressing my face fails to soothe my troubled soul.  The gentle lapping of the waves on the shore can't drown out the flashbacks of Brad pounding my sister from behind.  Even the warmth of the sun isn't intense enough to bring the life back into my weary eyes.  None of it can bring back that girl that was once full of life and hope, even when her relationsihip was falling apart.  I loved him with my all of my heart and soul, with my whole being.  I set aside my own needs to accomodate his, even when he failed to hold up his end of the deal.  I tolerated numerous lonely days and nights to support his dreams, but I had no one to share mine with.  I even passed up an opportunity to be with another man because of my loyalty to him.  

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I hear footsteps behind me.  It's him.  I take a deep breath before I turn around.  He is only a few feet away from me.  The moment our eyes lock, the emotions return, making me breathless.  Why did he have to wear that suit, looking all hot? My heart betrays me.  I start longing for him...his scent, his arms, his lips, the warmth of his body.  What is wrong with you? He just screwed us over!! I snap at my own heart for finding a moment of weakness especially at a time like this.

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"What the fuck are you doing here?!! Were you following me??" I scream as I shove him, my lips trembling in anger. 

"No, I was doing a seminar at the hospital.  I didn't even know you were here." He explains as he tries to regain his balance.

"You expect me to believe that?!" I narrow my eyes as my hands clench into a tight fist.

"You can call the hospital if you want.  I just signed out.  I'm just glad I found you." He takes a step towards me, but quickly stops when he sees the wrath burning in my eyes.

"Fuck you, Brad." I shake my head in disgust. He has the audacity to act like he's concerned about my well-being.

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"Lyn, I'm so sorry..."  His eyes penetrate through mine in anguish and regret.

"How could you?? With my sister??" 

"I thought you and Luke were sleeping together..."

"Why would you think that??"

"Because...I saw the way you looked at each other when you first met.  It was like I didn't even exist, like you wished you were with him instead." 

"So you sleep with my sister instead of talking to me about it?"

"I'm sorry...I fucked up." He looks away, avoiding the painful truth in my eyes.

"Some things are
Better left unsaid
But they still turn me

Inside out
Turning inside out

Turning inside out
Tell me...
Why
Tell me...
 
Why"

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"I fucking loved you, you asshole, you were my world!!  I would have done anything for you---"

"Lyn, I---"

"Let me finish!! Now it's my turn to speak and you will listen to every word, do you understand me??"

He nods quietly, looking down at the ground.

"You were never around. I got tired of being lonely. So I called Luke. And you know what we did? We talked about you. I told him I didn't know what else to do. And you know what he said? That you don't know what you have. And I missed us. I hated the fact that it wasn't you who was there. So I kissed him, just to get try to get that feeling again. But he stopped because of you. You're like a brother to him, and he didn't want to hurt you. He was just trying to help us but you assumed the worst. And then you stormed out."

"I...I don't know what to say..."

"You didn't even give me a chance to tell you..."

"Tell me what?"

"That I was 10 weeks pregnant..."

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"What?? Pregnant??" He cups my face with his hands, eyes wide in shock.

"We were gonna have a baby..."

"I was gonna be a dad??" His eyes light up.

"Yes...but I lost it...when you walked out."

"Oh, man. Fuck! Fuck!!" He pulls me close as he kisses my forehead. I want so much to break away from his embrace and run, but his aquatic, masculine scent overpowers any strength I have to fight it.  My tears soak through the fabric of his suit as I bury my face in his chest.

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"Oh, God!!" I finally release all of the pain, regret, fear, humiliation and despair that this man has put me through. As he squeezes me tighter, I cling to him even more, holding on to the remnants of the feelings that we used to share, the times when we used to be happy, the passion that used to consume our waking moment.  He was supposed to be my soulmate. He was supposed to be my happy ending.  He was supposed to be the father of my children, living in a nice house with a white picket fence.  He was not supposed to break my heart, making me almost want to kill myself, running off to some strange town just to get away from the pain. I was not supposed to be lost...and all alone.

"I was gonna be a dad..." He chokes on his own words as he caresses my back, his touch warming my skin and fragments of my own heart.

"These are the tears...
The tears we shed
This is the fear
This is the dread
These are the contents

Of my head
And these are the years 

That we have spent
And this is what

They represent"

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"I need to make this right...just give me a chance to make this right." He pleads, his face covered with shame and regret.

"Brad..." I've waited so long to hear those words, to finally see him take interest in repairing our relationship. But it feels like he's a week too late. His words merely bounce off my ears. They have lost their meaning. Why couldn't he say this the night before he walked out, when I was pregnant and full of hope? Why couldn't he say this when I came home from the doctor's office, when I realized that I still loved him? And I would have taken any crumb that he tossed in my direction.

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"Please, Lyn...give me another chance.   I love you!" His eyes fill with panic as I hear the desperation in his voice.

"You fucked my sister. You destroyed my heart. I have nothing left to give you." I turn my face away. Just hearing Naveah's name in my head makes me sick to my stomach. Of all the women he could have gone after, he chose her. The other person besides my mom that made me feel inferior all my life, like I wasn't worthy of respect or love. She always had my parents' attention, she was always my parents' pride and joy, but why did she have to go after Brad? Besides the baby, he was the only thing that truly belonged to me...and even I couldn't have that.

"And this is how I feel
Do you know how I feel ?
'Cause I don't think

You know how I feel
I don't think you 
Know what I feel
I don't think you

Know what I feel
You don't know what I feel"


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"I'm sorry..." He slumps, looking disappointed and defeated.  For a moment, my heart goes out to him.  I believe that he's remorseful of what he did.  But my mind won't let me forget what I saw.  How can he stand there and tell me loves me when he just disrespected me in my own home, in my own bed, with my own sister?  How little did he think of me to think that he could get away with it?  What did the last two years mean?  Was it all a lie?                                                                          

"Sorry won't change what happened..." I look into his pale blue eyes one more time, trying to remember all of his redeeming qualities, trying to remember what made me fall in love in the first place. Right now, they are buried underneath his failure and betrayal. Instead, I am bombarded by memories of lonely nights, broken promises and flashbacks of his body grinding against Naveah's.

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"Baby, please let me in...give me another chance...please..." He pleads as he bangs against the door.

"You need to leave." For a moment, I am tempted to open the door and run into his arms. I can just forget about everything that's happened. I can pretend that things were like they used to be. He's here now, he wants another chance, and he seems remorseful of what he did. I'm not going to lie and pretend I still don't want him, that my heart and body doesn't crave him. My drug is banging at my door, begging to come in, waiting, just waiting for me to take a hit. I can fuck the shit out of him tonight, take out all of my  frustrations as I use his body like a punching bag, until I have no use for him. Whatever it takes to make him feel a fraction of the pain that I felt when I caught him in bed with my sister.

But it's almost impossible for me to look at his face without hers right beside it and hearing his name without hers echoing behind. He has touched her, he has tasted her, he has been inside of her and made her moan like a whore. It tears into my heart even more, and this time, she is laughing at me.

"Please, Lyn...I need you..."

"Don't make me call the cops."

"..........."

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"This is the book
I never read
These are the words

I never said
This is the path

I'll never tread
These are the dreams

I'll dream instead"


*Copyright 2012 Lyn C.S.*
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"Why" by Annie Lennox
Video by: AnnieLennoxVEVO

54 comments:

  1. He really thought he could beg and plead his way back in? And his excuse is that he though she and Luke were sleeping together? Wow! All that could have been avoided if he'd just asked! He broke her heart in a way that can't be repaired. That kind of hurt banishes all trust so I'm glad she ran home and closed the door!
    She needs a hug more than anything! Or a punching bag and a picture of her sister's face!

    Very proud of her for holding her ground.

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  2. That was a weak excuse. He "thought" they were sleeping together. He asked her and she told him no, so there was no thinking. He didn't trust her enough to believe her. I think a part of him wanted her sister all along and this gave him an excuse.

    I'm glad she was strong and didn't go back to him. What he did was UNFORGIVABLE!!! He slept with her sister, in her house, in her bed!! WTF no amount of sorry let me make it up to you can fix that.

    Somehow I don't think he will let her go that easily now that he knows where she is. I see him coming back and trying to win her back. I hope she stays strong!

    I'm glad she told him about the baby. He needed to know everything that he lost.

    That sister of hers needs another beat down! Somehow I fear when her mom finds out, she will figure out a way to make it be Lyn's fault somehow.

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  3. Wow Lyn Good Job I just read chapter 24 of memoirs and way to go for not letting brad back in. just keep pushing him away hes going to hurt you more don't give him a chance to come back. Hes had his chances nothing is going to change. You forgot to tell me the chapter was up though. at least I read it and liked it.

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  4. Qui,

    Yeah, he really thought he could beg and plead his way back in her life. He really thought that Lyn and Luke were sleeping together since she found him in their apartment, and she admitted that they kissed. And since he caught them flirting, he's never been able to get past it. But you know what? He did ask, and she said no. They never slept together. But he still refused to believe it.

    I agree, what he did destroyed any trust she had left. I mean seriously, how do you take someone back after they do that to you? With your sibling? She does need a hug, especially from a good friend that truly cares about her. This would be the time for girlfriends.

    Haha a punching back with her sisters face?? How about her sister as a punching bag? That would be more satisfying. Whoop that trick!! lol

    She was so tempted to have one more night with him, but she resisted. Her sister really tainted him, she can't even look at him without seeing her face.

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  5. Jazen,

    I agree, that was a weak excuse. Even though she told her that nothing happened, and they just kissed, he still didn' believe her. Something about that night when he caught them flirting did something to him, and I think he's had suspiciouns that Lyn is attracted to Luke.

    It's too bad that he couldn't see that she loves him, and not Luke, and he didn't see that until now when it's too late. You may be on to something. Maybe that was just an excuse to hook up with her sister, since that night he flirted with her. Kind of the same way Lyn was attracted to Luke from the beginning, and it made her question her feelings abou Brad. But at least she had enough decency to be honest.

    I agree, how do you forgive something like that?? I mean, what's worse than sleeping with someone's sister, in their own home and bed? I think with time Lyn will be able to forgive Brad, well, at leas forgive him enough to not be angry anymore. But she will never forget what they did.

    I agree, now that he can't have her, it seems like that just makes him want her more. He's being challenged again, and I'm sure the the thought of another man touching her will just fuel his jealousy. And knowing he could have been a dad, it will just make him regret it even more. I hope she stays strong too, and she can't let herself forget what happened. Otherwise, she'll find herself in a moment of weakness.

    You know, you make a good point. I can see her sister doing something like that, denying everything to make Lyn look like a liar. If that happens, I hope she'll have enough strength to stand up for herself. She can always count on Adam to be on her side.

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  6. Tom,

    I was just going to message you about Ch. 24 but you beat me to it. lol I was working on it last night but I lost my post and I was so mad. It was already late so I had to rewrite it today when I got home, and I just posted it.

    I'm glad you enjoyed Ch. 24! I agree, it was good that she didn't take Brad back. As much as she missed him, she was beyond hurt, and he completely destroyed any trust she had left. He's had plenty of chance and he never took them. And he didn't appreciate her until she left.

    I'm glad you had a good weekend, and you were able to get your modem working again. Ugh...I would freak out if I lost internet connection. lol I hope you have a great week! :-)

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  7. Man men, where do they get the idea, that they can change everything with a plea or ask forgiveness when they did the deceiving.

    Good for her standing up against all she had to fight to stay away. But now i see stalker written all over him. Stalker cause he now knows not only the town, but the house she lives in. I see him trying to get her back in what ever way he can, even if its deception. BUT she must always remember her sister, and him, together. She must stay strong. My own husband who did this same thing to me, stalked, till my 2nd marriage husband nearly stomped him in the ground telling him he was a nothing in my life, and to never come near me again or he would permanently fix the problem.

    She has to find a release, a new soul mate, a friend who can sympathize with how she feels. Maybe one that even had similar experiences. He will be back, i know it, feel it in my bones.

    He might even try lying to her, to get her back. She must see it, must see through the lies.

    Can't wait now to see what he will try and pull or even what she will do to completely break it off, or worse, give in.

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  8. Oh yeah kicking and punching her sister would definitely make her feel better!

    I bet she did taint him! Now all she needs is a good girlfriend, some ice cream, and a good hot guy.

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  9. Great update, tommiegirl. Now its time for the sister showdown, part 2! Sorry that your post got deleted last night and you had to repost today, that must have been really frustrating.

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  10. Jerry,

    Haha I know, they think if they say sorry enough times, it will change what happened or at least make you forget what they did. At least that's the case with Brad. He doesn't seem to understand that his actions speak louder than words, and no amount of I'm sorrys is going to change what he did.

    Oh crap, you think he's going to be stalking her?? That's true, now he knows where she lives. But that would take a lot of dedication to drive or fly 200 miles just to lurk by her house. lol But I agree, it's going to be hard for him to accept that she's gone, and she doesn't want anything to do with him. He's had such hold on her for a long time, and that may be why he took her for granted. Maybe he thought she wasn't going anywhere, even when things were bad. So yes, she will need to be strong...because he has a way of making her weak and making her forget what he did wrong.

    Wow, your 2nd husband beat your ex's ass?? That's awesome, he finally got a taste of his own medicine! He just have been like your guardian angel because who knows what that douche would have done if you didn't have anyone around to protect you.

    I agree, she needs to confide in a good friend to help her deal with the emotional damage. I know she has to be messed up right now with everything that she's gone through. I wouldn't be surprised if he avoids relationships for a while...at least until she feels ready to trust her heart and body with someone new. And if Brad comes back, I hope she'll find the stregth to ignore his pleas.

    I am concerned about her ability to resist Brad's sexual charms...that's her weakness at this point. If she gives in just one time, it will be very hard for her to get out of an even bigger mess.

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  11. Qui,

    Haha maybe we can hunt her sister down and kidnap her, then hold her down while Lyn her ass. xD

    YES, she needs some butter pecan ice cream therapy with a good girlfriend, and just let it all out. Share some stories. Talk shit. Cry. Hug. Until she feels lighter. And afterwards, be in the arms of a good, hot guy. Ooooh who could that be?? xD

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  12. Kristine,

    Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed the update!! Bahahaah sister showdown Part 2, huh?? I like the sound of that! Dun dun duuuuuuun!!

    I know, I was so pissed when I lost my post. I spent like 4 hours on it, cried my eyes out writing the chapter and I was actually finished. I just need to fix the spacing. Then I made a mistake and hit the back button on the message box and it was gone!! I was like, WTF?? You gotta be kidding me!! And it was already like one in the morning and I had to get to bed.

    So I had to rewrite the post when I got home today, and cried all over again. lol At least I was able to remember most of what I wrote. Next time I'm saving it on Word first. xD

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  13. ~ I think he was just clutching at straws when he came up with that lame excuse,(like he had not thought it through enough to come up with a better excuse,to explain why he did that!)
    ~ She did tell him that her & Luke only kissed & nothing else,& him not believing her tells me that he is the guilty party,how long has he been sleeping with the skank of a sister!?
    ~ I am glad she resisted his charms & remembered what he did,but in time that will not be enough as loneliness sets in,& remembering what she lost,but you can never go back,as if they(Men!) think they got away with it,they(men) will do it again, & again!
    ~ Luke needs to find her as he understands & knows them both,& he can provide the shoulder she needs,if Brad comes back & Luke is on the scene that will put a stop to Brad trying!LOL!
    ~ He will know that he pushed her into Luke's arms,& what he did,effectively cleared the way for Luke,to have a closer relationship with Lyn!
    Brad sounds way to guilty & it would explain all the missed dates & lonely nights,after all is said & done they are both in the same field & have the same sort of work schedules,so what is his excuse? And were was he all those times?????
    ~ Loved it more when you can!(",)

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    1. I love this analysis from RWN, so I thought I'd share it here.

      "This is what I meant about Luke looking for her,as Mica/Jaz says he would be the best friend for her to heal as he would not take advantage of her venerability & would not start a sexual relationship with her just because he or she wants it,he has the long term in mind & knows that if he took advantage of her that would destroy the long term goal!
      ~ Yes I agree Luke would be the best FRIEND for her right now,he would also stop her wondering eye,as she would focus better,as she is an emotional mess at the moment,& sex is her outlet,just as alcohol is the outlet for others!"

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  14. Bad decisions made on assumptions. Brad was/is such an idiot. I hope Lyn also reflects on her wandering eye and vows to make some changes within herself. She looked, he saw, they drifted, he assumed, he acted, she saw.... it isn't her fault, he should have had more self control. I also wonder how long he has been with the sister. Ultimately, this is a very bad outcome to a lack of communication. :(
    I need to read more please :)

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  15. Oh my gosh, wow.

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  16. I think that she was right not to forgive him. I don't think that I could either. If it had been any other woman and any other place, but he chose her sister and her own bed!

    He deserves to hurt now! I just hope that she can move on! I don't think those memories of him with her sister can be erased!

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  17. Why didn't she kick him in the balls! I was so hoping she would... at least once! Just once!

    I'm sorry... what? Get back together? Give you another chance? I lost MY baby because of you, my sister (not a loss), my marriage, my home, my... my... Fuck you Brad! Did he really think she was weak?
    "I thought you were sleeping with Luke!" So throw her out of the house, but fucking her sister in her bed, her home... no coming back from that!

    "...I fucked up!" Understatement of the year!
    Yeah, get the hell off my porch!

    She's hurting now and in some obvious ways still attracted to him, but she be fine once she distances herself. Get the pieces of her sad life and glue them together. Start anew! Hard to do, but in time she be okay!

    *Asshole...
    Uh, I meant to say Great chapter!

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  18. Okay, I loved this line so much: "My drug is banging at my door, begging to come in, waiting, just waiting for me to take a hit."

    What a perfect description for Brad! He's poison, and even though Lyn knows that, she's still drawn back to him. I can get why two years spent with your 'soul mate' would be hard to throw away -- but of course, Brad is the one the tossed it in the trash. I'm so proud of Lyn for kicking him out and getting away from him again and again even though he's such a persistent fucker.

    Ahh, this chapter killed me though. I almost felt bad for Brad -- not only did he destroy his relationship with a wonderful woman, but sabotaged his chance at being a father. He sacrificed all that for petty jealousy! Ugh. So glad Lyn's already found some other options in Appaloosa Plains; at least she knows she doesn't have to settle with a dick like Brad.

    Oh, and the sister! Don't even get me started on the sister. She might be the most despicable character of them all.

    Anyway, great chapter. I hope Lyn gets to find some happiness soon!!

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  19. I feel like I am the only one who wants Lyn to get back together with Brad . There has got to be a better reason...

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  20. Hey there! I noticed that you subscribed to my legacy journal and came to check out yours. Are you actually looking at mine? Ha!

    This is a really intense and creative sims story blog! I'm still wandering around, getting a feel for the story.

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  21. Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Once again art has taken over my simming time.
    I've just read the new chapter and its amazing. I really felt the emotion Lyn was describing. It must be so hard, your heart and your head telling you totally different things.

    Amazing update.

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  22. Good for Lyn! I'm so glad she didn't go back to him. She better never go back. If he did that once, no matter what his "excuse" was, he won't think twice about doing it again if she took him back. Even if Lyn HAD slept with Luke, that's still no excuse for banging her sister, especially if he was trying to fix things.

    This situation definitely showed Brad that he was taking Lyn for granted. It kind of makes me sad that it was too late, but you can't just ignore someone, fuck their sister, and then expect them to be fine with taking you back.

    --Ali

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  23. Karima,

    Haha so you're still not buying his excuse?? You don't trust him one bit, do you? xD At that time, that was his reason. It's interesting that she didn't ask him when she had the chance...and I even pondered if she should...but she just didn't seem ready to hear it. The possibility of Brad sleeping with Naveah more than once would just kill her even more. The truth will come out in another way and another time. But during their confrontation, she was still shocked about what happened.

    You're right, once her anger dissipates and she find herself alone again, loneliness will set in. It's going to take time for her to accept what she had and what she lost, and what can never be. And if Brad shows up again and she finds a moment of weakness...I really hope she'll be able to turn him away. And if he persists, she might have to put a restraining order on him. lol

    You also make a really good point about Luke understanding the both of them well...it's interesting to see it from his perspective. These are two people that he cares about, but he's conflicted over his feelings for Lyn and loyalty to Brad. But he can definitely be a shoulder for her to cry on. She needs a really good friend right now.

    That's true, they both work at the hospital yet he was never around. If he's been with Naveah this whole time, that would explain the strain on their relationship and his lack of effort to make things work. You're right, where was he all those times?? Hmmmm...xD

    I love reading your analysis, you always bring a new angle that I haven't thought about. lol And that means...more story ideas!! xD

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  24. Zhippidy,

    Haha you called Brad an idiot. I think the concensus is clear on that one, he really messed up big time. I agree with the assumptions and miscommunications..and lack of it...on their part. She was definitely guilty of a wandering eye in the beginning, but she avoided getting into a bad situation by staying away from Luke. It wasn't until her loneliness became unbearable that she called on him for support. Brad's flirting with Naveah in the beginning was another red flag as well. The problem is that he actually slept with her.

    I already have the next chapters planned out, so you'll find out more on Monday. :-)

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  25. Daisies,

    I agree, if she forgives him now, she will forget what he did, and she will probably end up taking him back. She had to stay strong, and she had to see past his charm to get a grasp of what he did. There are some things that you do that are forgivable, and some things...you're just asking for a deathwish.
    I know, seriously? What's worse than sleeping with the sister? Her mom? Her dad? Adam? It's just wrong on so many levels.

    I agree, everytime she thinks of him and Naveah, she will get flashbacks of what they did. And it's going to take a long time before she can even think about forgiving them. If she does.

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  26. Jean-Marie,

    Welcome to my blog! Thank you for checking out my story, I'm glad you're enjoying it so far. First of all, I love your name! It's so beautiful and classy. Second, your post has Daijah written all over it. I swear, you sound just like her when you leave a comment, especially the part where she wants to kick Brad in the nuts. lol

    "Fuck you Brad!"
    Bahahaah OMG, this is exactly what Daijah would say too!! You should have read her comment on Ch. 23. I was in tears cracking up. She was livid at what Brad did! xD

    Well, Brad does an an intense hold on Lyn, and that fact that she was in love with him...on top of the amazing sex they had (when they had it), he knows the right buttons to push. He turns on the charm and know exactly what to say just to get her to cave. That' why he's her drug...being with him is like a high...and she hasn't taken a hit in a while.

    "Yeah, get the hell off my porch!"
    OMG, you crack me up!! You would think Brad cheated on you too. xD

    I hope she'll be able to stay away from him and heal in time as well. She's been through a lot, and I hope she can only become stronger because of this. I mean, can it get worse?

    "*Asshole...
    Uh, I meant to say Great chapter!"

    Bahahah!! I can totally see you trying to get your last kick in his nuts. Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it!

    I have "Tamed" on my bloglist, and I will start reading soon. :-) I wanna know what the big fuss is about Chase! xD

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  27. VictoriousSimmer,

    I know, the drama! lol At least Lyn was strong enough to resist him, and finally sent him packing.

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  28. Count,

    Haha thanks, I didn't even know what I was thinking when I wrote that. But Brad being a drug trying to lure her for another hit was what came to my mind. lol No matter how much she hates him, her feelings are still there, and she can't just switch them off at the drop of a hat. As shocked as she is that he slept with her sister, I think a part of her still misses the security he provided...I mean, they shared a live for two years. A lot of lost chances and dreams.

    I agree, he threw happiness away for one night of skanky love. But there's no guarantee that it was one night. What if it was more than once? Haha OMG, you just called him a "persistent fucker"!! You cussed!! *fains from shock* Man, he must have really gotten on your bad side to make you cuss like that. lol

    I felt bad for Brad too, especially how reaction when he found out she was pregnant..and she lost the baby. He was like..."I was gonna be a dad..". Like...it was something he would have looked forward to. But he had to screw it up!! And OMG you called Brad a dick!! That's two cuss words in one night!! O.o

    Haha Naveah has probably been called the foulest names in the book. And she deserves it. I'm seriously wondering how she and Brad are going to redeem themselves. The readers don't think much of them. xD I hope Lyn finds happiness too, after all she's been through. Poor girl. :-(

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  29. Susan,

    Welcome to my blog! Thanks for checking out my story and for the kind words :-) I actually read your story, I left some comments in the first and last chapter. I'm still wondering what the social worker did with the kids, and if they will be able to get them back.

    Take your time reading my story. I know it's a lot of chapters. :-)

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  30. Actually, that's CourtneyHelen's wishacy, the Hand of Fate, you're thinking of. :) Mine is an old style Pinstar Legacy with some rule tweaks called the Samples.

    I miss Courtney and hope she's coming back. She kind of left us on a cliffhanger with the social worker.

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  31. Ayemee,

    No worries, I figured the semester started again for you so you must be super busy. I have both of your stories on my blog list so I won't miss updates when you post them. How are your classes going so far?

    Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter! I crying as I wrote this chapter too, I felt everything that they were going through. Brad's regret and Lyn's pain as well as what they both lost together. And on top of listening to Annie Lennox, I was sobbing like a baby. lol But in a good way. I agree, the heart wants what it wants, no matter what your mind says and no matter how much it tries to reason. Feelings aren't disposable, you can't just turn them on and off. It also takes time for them to go away.

    It's good that she left BP. The longer she's away from Brad and Naveah, the better she'll be able to pick up the pieces and start over again.

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  32. Ali,

    I know, I'm proud of her for not taking him back either, even she was tempted...oh so tempted. Seeing him again brought back all of the old feelings, and she missed him. Despite what he did with Naveah, she still missed him and she still loved him. Her mind can remind her to stay angry at him for what he did, but her heart doesn't understand that she should just turn her feelings off. In time, when she's stronger, she will see the big picture. But right now she's raw with pain, and she's in desperate need of comfort.

    I agree, he showed that he was capable of cheating, in worst way. If he can do it once, he can do it again. Unless his remorse and regret is genuine and he truly make a mistake, but still...he didn't appreciate her when she was around. And YES, there's never a good enough reason to sleep with someone's sister. EVER! She tried to make things work and he was already sampling new pastures.

    "But you can't just ignore someone, fuck their sister, and then expect them to be fine with taking you back."

    OMG, Ali, you cussed!! That's so unlike you! lol Wow, he must have really pissed you off. Unless my cussing in the previous chapters brought it out of you. Haha! Sorry about that. It's the characters talking, it's the characters talking! xD This chapter was sad for me to write as well, I was in tears. I felt everything they were going through, especially the loss of a once great relationship. I really wanted them to get back together in the end, I thought they belonged together. But after writing Ch. 23, I was sick to my stomach. I can never look at Brad the same way again.

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    1. Haha, funny you said something about me swearing. You should hear me actually talking. My boyfriend says that "ladies don't say those words." For some reason it just feels weirder writing them out than actually saying them.

      But yeah, he really did piss me off. I know how hard it is to get over someone you're still in love with, especially when you SEE them sometimes. Lyn is really strong though. I hope she can get through it. I almost think that having other female friends would really help her right now. A new relationship is definitely not what she needs right now.

      -Ali

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    2. Whaaaat?? You swear in real life?? Why do I find that hard to believe?? xD You sound so nice and polite in your posts! Wow, and for your boyfriend to say that, you must cuss like a sailor. Now I'm curious about those "words". lol Haha that's interesting that it feels weird for you to write it than to say it. For me, it's the opposite. It feels weird for me to say it but writing somehow doesn't seem so bad. Hmm..then again, maybe it's because I got used to it. xD

      OMG, yes, I know the feeling when you're trying so hard to get over someone but you still have feelings for them. And to make it worse, you still communicate with them...and wish you were still together. And you really don't get over that person until you find someone better. Not new, but better. xD I agree, the last thing she needs is to jump into another relationship. She'll just be on a rebound. A good girlfriend, yes! Over some frozen daquiris and ice cream. lol

      By the way, is Ali your real name?

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    3. Haha, ice cream is definitely one way to help get over someone! ;)

      Well that makes sense about you feeling weird swearing in real life. You're a teacher, right? Those students might not appreciate that. xD

      My real name is Alicia. :) But some of my friends IRL call me Ali, and it's shorter to type lol. xD

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    4. Yes, ice cream!! Lots and lots of ice cream, especially butter pecan! xD Yeah, I'm a teacher. I practically have to act like an angel and I don't even let them cuss in class. They watch you like a hawk and they always try to see if you lead by example. If you don't want them to cuss, then you can't cuss. If you want them to be respectful, then you have to be respectful. You basically have to be an example of how you want them to act. So maybe this story is my way to let loose. lol A way to unleash my repressed side. Haha!

      Awww, Alicia is a pretty name. And I'm also thinking that Ren stands for Renee? Just a wild guess. lol Since you sign as Ali, I'll call you Ali as well. :-)

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    5. Haha, yep. My middle name is Renee. :D And thank you. :)

      OMG, butter pecan is my absolute favorite!!

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    6. Haha, I was right about your middle name!! Alicia Renee, that's very pretty. I don't have a middle name. My parents have long first names and they wanted their kids' names as short and simple as possible. lol

      YAY!! Butter pecan is your favorite too! I swear, I can inhale a whole half gallon if I'm left to my own devices. xD

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  33. Susan,

    I'm so sorry, I clicked on Hand of Fate and I thought that was your story. You're right, I haven't had a chance to check it out. I am bookmarking it now and I will start reading soon.

    I also hope CourtneyHelen will update too! That was definitely a cliffhanger. lol

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  34. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG OK! This was hilarious! Was this a joke? Where's the real chapter Lyn? For real stop playing with me. "I'm sorry, I fucked up." <---HAHAHAHAHA WHAT?! That can't be your excuse? That can't be what he meant to say because it has to be the dumbest fucking bullshit I've ever heard before in my life! You slimy, skanky, worthless piece of shit you really thought that was going to work? I mean REALLY? Were you NOT paying attention to her story Brad? She died because of you! HOW THE FUCK is "I'm sorry" gonna bring her back to life? And while we're on the subject, why the fuck is he still alive? Do they not have shotguns in Appaloosa Plains? HELLO it's the country! I know Mom and Pop kept one in the stall with Mr. Nunu! When he stepped foot on that porch that bitch should have been blasting because I sure as hell would have.

    Man her sister is the skankest ho I've ever known. The amount of shit she...all I'm gonna say is Karma is a bitch and I'm waiting for it to kick them both in the nuts...HARD!

    I hate that she let him touch her...comfort her. He didn't even deserve that crumb. I'd let his ass starve then fuck a football team in front of him.

    So I guess Llama are not allowed on the beach. What a shame. I was so hoping to show off my hot pink and baby blue set that I got for Christmas. Ah well...maybe some other time.

    What is wrong with you? He just screwed us over!!
    ^^Yeah because talking to yourself is a sure shot of sanity!

    I think this was pretty composed. Yeah...I hope something happens to Hellwhore, you know what I'm screaming? Because that bitch can't get off scotfree. It's not right that she continues to get off with shit and get away with shit because she's favored. That entitled attitude is the reason she felt like she could take Brad and did.

    Leah you are the only one. You're a head case we've told you this before Sweetheart. It's ok we still love you.

    P.S. I like tht you moved that comment thing down. I hated it on top of the comment box. It annoyed me...I'm weird like that but it just seemed like it was in my way and taunted me because it hung there like a coy bitch wanting to be touched and deciding at the last second to move away from me. (I bet you have no idea what I'm talking about. But that's ok. I won't hold it against you...this time.)

    P.S.S. Did you know the sims' hair has no shadow? Don't believe me? Check out shot #2. Yeah I was surprised too! But Lyn is just as bald as the day she was born. Just thought I'd share :D ya welcome!

    P.S.S.S I lol'd at the stalker ice cream truck pulling in when Brad was leaving. That fucking guy comes and parks outside my damn home day and night. HELLO I didn't come outside and buy a $20 cone when you pulled in I'm not going to come out now. Go stalk someone else please Mr. Ice Cream Killer guy. I mean this guy's business has to be seriously tanking because he stays out there all day and NO ONE comes up to him! If you see no one in this neighborhood wants your price shit go shove it in someone else's face...OMG am I ranting about the ice cream truck? I totally did not mean to do that...bye!

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    1. OMG, you and your comments!! Bahahahah!! They never cease to amaze me!! No, seriously, that was his explanation, he fucked up. At least that's what he told her. Remember this is coming from his point of view, so this was his version of the truth. Does that mean it's accurate? Not necessarily. She didn't ask how long they've been sleeping together and he didn't volunteer the information. From her part, it could be because she's still raw with pain and she's not ready to hear it. But from his part, he could be teling the truth...or he could be holding back because he still wants a chance with her.

      "She died because of you! HOW THE FUCK is "I'm sorry" gonna bring her back to life?"

      That's powerful right there!! She died because of him. Wow...no wonder you can't stand his ass! Well, on top of the whole sleeping with her sister thing. lol Seriously, how is he going to bring her back from this? I mean...if he said he didn't mean for it to happen, we all know that's a lie. And if he said he was drunk, that's a lie too. So in reality...he knows what he did, he knows he got caught, and there's really nothing else he can say to change what happened. The question now is...how long has he been banging the sister?

      Haha he's still alive because Lyn or Lyn haven't shot him yet...or beat him to death. So you didn't like the fact that he touched her? Awww, sorry about that. But her feelings are still there, and she needed some comfort...so she took it. But in the end, even she couldn't ignore what they did. And that's why she told him to leave. I thought I was the only one that notice that llama sign. xD

      I agree, Naveah keeps getting away with things, and that's what led her to believe that she can go after Lyn's man and screw him. But you know what? At the end of the day, Brad SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. I find it very hard to believe that he was raped. Even if someone flashes her vagina at him, he should look the other way and run. Instead, he jumped at the chance to bang her. And who knows? What if he's the one that seduced her, and she just caved in? But that doesn't mean Naveah should get away with it, I agree.

      Actually Blogger has been updating the comment section so it moved on its own. BUt I had no idea it bothered you so much! I'm going to move it again just to torture you. xD You know what's strange? I know exactly what you're talking about. I can totally see the comment thing teasing you and you trying to catch it. Where are my crazy pills??

      OMG, I didn't notice that bald shadown until now!! I swear, you freaking catch everything! I agree, the ice cream truck is CREEPY. Why does it keep passing by at like 3 in the morning?? And like you said, no one ever comes out to buy some. YES you are ranting abut the ice cream truck!! *There there, back in the happy cage with your happy pills*

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  35. P.S.S.S.S Your clock is wrong...and weird. It's not 4:30...your mind is in Cali huh? You should stop doing that.

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    1. It's on Eastern time but for some reason it's three hours behind!! Hehe awww, Cali. I miss El Pollo Loco and the burrito trucks!! *cries like a girl*

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  36. Leah,

    I'm afraid you may be the only person that wants Lyn and Brad back together. At least you're the only one that has said it. But I can see why you would think that way, I wanted them to end up together in the end because they make a great couple. But Brad just had to screw her sister!! Yeah, that's hard to forgive...and forget.

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  37. Oh Em GEE!!! She shouldn't have been flirty with his buddy, but for him to do her sister - knowing how her family treated her, and in their own bed??? Completely unforgivable.

    Back when they first met, I was a little surprised at Lyn's feelings for Luke, - it almost made me think that she really wasn't all that in love with Brad. But that she went out of her way all those years to avoid him, that showed she was really trying to work it out.

    I still can't believe he did her horrible sister! Did he just drop by after all these years to see if she was still into him, or was she the reason for all his late nights and missed dates with Lyn? I'm starting to think that's the reason things got as bad for them as they did. What a collossal d*ck!

    Cheating is unforgivable, but to cheat with her sister? He deserves his willie to shrivel up and fall off!

    I hope she gets her poor dog back so she isn't forced to live with Brad and Niveah!

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    1. Jilly,

      Yeah, doing the sister definitely took the cake!! Yes, she flirted with Luke and kissed him but he just crossed the line, the unforgivable, and I don't know how he can redeem himself after this.

      I know what you mean, I was surprised by her attraction to Luke to, especially the way they looked at each other. It surprised her and it surprised me as well as I wrote the chapters. But like you said, her avoiding Luke was her way of avoiding temptation. But it kind of makes you think...if you have to avoid someone, how strong are your feelings?

      I think the shock has worn out a little bit but when I first posted Ch. 23, I was just...sick to my stomach. I couldn't even look at that picture of Brad with Naveah in their bed. On top of having to write the whole thing. It just killed me to have to do this to their relationship. You know, all those late nights and missed calls could be for a reason, and it may not be job-related. That aspect will be explored in the next few chapters.

      LOL his willie shriveling off and falling?? Wow, that would really hurt him. His superpowers will be taken away and he won't be able to please the ladies! xD

      OMG, Nikki living with Brad and Naveah?? Nooooo!!!

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  38. Once a cheater always a cheater. I say she should just look for someone new. Prehaps her and Luke should now hook up. She was still wrong for kissing Luke in the beginning though.

    To me if I saw my wife kissing another man that would be as bad as sleeping with him. Same with flirting.

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    1. Hi Catlover, welcome to my blog!! Thanks for checking out this story and leaving a comment. I agree, once a cheater, always a cheater...unless they really do some soul-searching to figure out what makes them cheat, and if they are really remorseful. But usually they it's because they got caught. lol

      I agree, I don't know how she can go back to him, especially after sleeping with her sister. Even if she forgives him later on, it will be very hard for her to forget. Yes, she was wrong for kissing Luke but at least she owned up to it. He, in turn, stormed out and slept with her sister the next day. So many things could have been avoided if he just made an effort to give her the time of day.

      I'll have to disagree, kissing and flirting isn't the same as sex. lol At least to me. I can forgive kissing and flirting, but sex?? That just crosses the line. To me kissing and flirting, especially when caught, are cries for help. They're symptoms of problems in the relationship and they can be adressed before it gets worse. But sleeping with someone?? That shows lack of self-control and respect for the other person. But to each their own, I guess. :-)

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  39. Good rittens! That Son of a bitch needs to suffer. I'm glad he knows what his actions caused and I hope he lives with it for the rest of his damn life. That bastard. ugh. I knew I couldn't trust him!
    The only bad part is that he knows where she lives now so he can come back and try to persuade her...
    And who knows, maybe she might reconnect with Luke ;)

    (I was finally able to catch up on my reading since school is now officially kicking my butt. I'm in the home stretch ti graduation so i'll be free soon!)

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    1. Oh and btw on RWN the link for this chapter is linked for the previous chapter. Just thought I's let you know :)

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    2. LOL the concensus is clear that Brad needs to suffer a horrible, painful death. So many readers were upset, and I don't blame them. I agree, it's good that she told him what was going on, especially with the baby. Now he knows how much he fucked up, and he missed out on being a father. That's true, he does know where she lives. But if he shows up uninvited, all she had to do is call the cops. And she needs to stay strong so she won't let him back in.

      Hehe her reconnecting with Luke is always a possibility. She can use a really good friend right now, she he can be a shoulder for her to dry on. :-)

      Thanks for catching up with my story! I hope school is going well for you. Graduation will be here before you know it!

      And thanks for letting me know about the link error. I fixed it. :-)

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  40. That hurt to read. Cheating, especially with the sister, is something I could never forgive. It would devistate me, so I know for her she is in sooo much pain! He could beg all he wants but I don't think he deserves another chance. As for her sister, I hope she dies by the end.

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  41. Welcome back, Dblonde! I agree, cheating especially with a family member is unforgivable. I can't think of many things that are worse than that. It killed me to have to do this to her, and it was even harder for me to write what she was going through. It definitely made me appreciate my hubby even more. lol

    LOL wow, death to the sister?? Dammn. She really messed up big time. xD

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