Monday, March 4, 2013

Chapter Thirty-Four (Bring Me To Life)

Previously, on "Memoirs Of A City Girl":
Ch. 33 (Walk)
-Naveah was not happy to see me at her parents' house.
-She did not want her family to know about us, so she tried to convince me to leave.
-She didn't even feel remorseful, in fact, she thought Lyn deserved to be cheated on.
-I decided to do the right thing by telling her family what happened.
-Frank became so angry that he lunged at me, but Adam stepped in.
-Even though Xhun took Naveah's side, Frank was disgusted with her daughter's behavior.
-Naveah tried to deny everything, but her eyes could not hide the truth.
-Frank defended Lyn and gave Naveah two weeks to move out.
-But he told me to stay away from his family.
-To my surprise, Adam gave me a ride home.
- He felt that my telling the truth finally gave Naveah what she deserved: consequences to her actions.
-He also assured me that I haven't lost him, and to not give up on Lyn.
-She still loves me.

*Strong Language*

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Location: Sacred Spleen Memorial Hospital
Date: Friday, 11/4/2011
Time: 2:13 p.m.

"Your vitals look good, Andrea.  They are all within the normal range.  Did you finish the antibiotics?" I give her a brief glance before my eyes return to her file.  I just saw her last week because she had the flu, but she insisted on moving the follow-up sooner.  Despite the fact that I am already behind on all my paperwork, and this afternoon was supposed to be my chance to catch up.  Normally I don't see patients outside of their appointments but I'll make an exception if it's an emergency or an urgent situation.

"I have two more days." She eases back into the chair as her face lights up into a smile, as if she has all the time in the world.  She has this way of tossing her honey blonde hair every time she catches herself staring at me.  Then she would look down at the purse sitting on her lap, her fingers holding it in place, as if it's going to fall off.

"Finish those up, and see how you feel.  The most important thing is to get enough rest." I make the necessary notes on her chart before I get ready to wrap things up.  Clearly this was not an emergency.  I told my assistant to reschedule my afternoon appointments today, but somehow this one slipped through the cracks.

"Yes, doctor."

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My eyes follow the length of her long, tan legs as she crosses them in front of me, her skirt hiked up even higher by the way she's sitting.  As she mumbles on about her efforts to eat more healthy, my nose picks up on the sweet scent of her perfume.  Does she always wear perfume when she sees her doctor?  In fact, every time I see her, she's always dressed nice.  Sexy would be more fitting.  From short skirts, tight dresses to low-cut blouses.  Is she trying to...nah, it's not possible.  She did tell me before that she works in an office, so this is probably her usual attire.

"So how are things with you and your girlfriend?" Her cobalt blue eyes maintain their gaze on mine as the black pumps that hug her feet sway up and down methodically.  My girlfriend? My girlfriend...my girlfriend...the one I used to have.  I haven't thought about Lyn since...this morning.  But now this chick just had to bring her up and I am mentally fucked all over again.

"We broke up." I divulge briefly as I avert her gaze, secretly wishing she never knew about Lyn.  In fact, she shouldn't know anything about my personal life.  But she and some of my patients know about her...because I talked about her a lot.  They would ask who that beautiful dark-haired woman was on my picture frame, and I was proud to tell them she was mine. Her picture still remains.  I have not had the heart to remove it from my desk.

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"Oh...I'm sorry to hear that..." Her eyes widen in surprise, but there's a glimmer of relief hiding behind her gaze, despite her half-hearted attempts at empathy.  She pushes her hands against the arm of the chair as she rises up, briefly looking away before slowly walking towards my desk.

"Andrea...what are you doing?" My heart races at the sight of her sitting on my desk, her breasts only inches away from my face.  I've had patients come on to me before, but never like this.  A part of me is hypnotized by it all, the boldness emanating from her eyes.  At the same time, if someone walks in here, my career would be in jeopardy.  Physicians are never, under any circumstances, to get involved with their patients.  It not only breaches the integrity of the practice but puts the hospital's reputation at stake as well.

"Just waiting for you to be single again. That's all." She bites her lower lip as she scans me from head to toe.  Before my brain can even process it, she reaches down to stroke my crotch, causing me to jump slightly.  In one instant, she is on her knees, tugging at my pants.  There are a thousand things going on in my head.  The fact that my patient is about to give me a blowjob behind my desk.  The fact that I can lock the door and have her bent over the desk with my hand over her mouth, her skirt raised above her hips.  The fact that this would be hot as hell.

So why can't I bring myself to do it?

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With one deep breath, I cover her hands with mine to keep her from going any further.  Slowly, I help her up until our eyes are level again.

"What's wrong?" She asks, trying to hide the disappointment on her face.

"I'm sorry.  You're very beautiful, but I can't do this." This time I search her eyes, not caring anymore if she can see the emptiness behind mine.  There are very few things in life that bring me joy, and sex is one of them.  Alcohol numbs the pain, but sex takes it away.  Not only does it bring great release, but it sure as hell feels good.  If there's one thing I'm good at, it's giving a woman pleasure.  I know what a woman wants.  I know what a woman needs.  I know a woman's body like the back of my own hand.  There's nothing hotter than witnessing a woman scream and thrash while she's riding the waves of a hard, deep orgasm.  The kind that makes her pass out and go straight to sleep.  The way Lyn used to...

"Oh...still not over her, huh?" The light that used to brighten up her smile is gone now.  I didn't even have to explain why...she knows.  Is it that obvious?

"Something like that."

"I should go.  Bye, Dr. Clemens."

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I can't believe it happened again.  A hot patient just came on to me.  I could have had her in this office.  I could have done whatever I wanted, especially the way she was looking at me.  Instead, I just let her walk away.  I don't even think she cared that I still have feelings for Lyn.  But she saw something.  Was it the way I stopped her?  Or was it the distant look in my eyes?

Ever since I told Lyn's family what happened, I've never felt so alone...and isolated.  Giving up hope that I can ever have a decent relationship with my dad, burning bridges with Lyn's family, losing Luke...losing her.  I still have Adam.  But even Adam can't fill the hollow feeling inside, this hole that always existed, but made even more apparent now.

I'm sitting here, in my own office, with my dream job, making good money, along with the prestige that comes with the title.  Women throwing themselves at me.

 I should be happy.  But I'm not.

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The sound of the telephone ringing startles me from my own thoughts, bringing me back to reality.  It's almost  3 p.m., and I still have so much work to do.  Just the sight of the stack of files and charts make my temples throb in agony, knowing I'll probably have to pull another all-nighter.

"This is Dr. Clemens, how can I help you?"

"Hi Dr. Clemens, this is Dr. Benson from Wolfson's Hospital and Research Facility in Appaloosa Plains.  I received Dr. Lyn Santori's application for residency.  She has you listed as a reference."

"Yes, I was one of Dr. Santori's evaluators."

"We value your opinion since you have contributed so much of your time and expertise to our hospital.  If you feel that Dr. Santori would be an asset to us, we'll be happy to have her on board."

Shit. What do I do?  If I recommend her, she might stay in Appaloosa for good.  If I don't, I'll be robbing her of another opportunity.  She already left this hospital because of me and I know how hard it is to get residency somewhere else when you have to start over.  Then again, I'm the reason why she had to start over again in the first place.  I had no idea doing the right thing would be so hard to do.

"Dr. Benson, let me gather some information and I'll call you back."

"No problem, you can reach me at the same number. Have a good day."

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Location: 99 Embarcadero Drive
Time: 11:17 p.m.

By the time 10 o'clock rolled around, I was barely half-way done with paperwork.  Just the thought of staying at the hospital until three in the morning, staring at endless piles of papers and files, was unbearable.  I don't know if it was because of what happened earlier with my patient, or Dr. Benson calling about Lyn's application for residency.  I just can't seem to escape her, no matter how hard I try.  I've tried burying myself in work since she left, but I can only spend so much time at the hospital before I start leaving pieces of my sanity there.  So much has happened in the last few weeks, and I am mentally and emotionally drained.  Sometimes I don't know if I'm coming or going.

So I did something I haven't done in a while.  I actually went home early.  I left everything on my desk.  For once, I listened to my body's cries as it sought the comfort of my king sized bed.

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When I open my eyes, I find myself standing in front of a lake filled with the clearest water.  It has a greenish-blue tint that deepens further away from the shore.  The beige, large grained sand creates a nice contrast with the tropical hue of the water, but the rest of the mountains seem to blend with the background.  There's a light fog that sweeps through the air, giving the water an almost eerie quality.  Have I been here before?

Suddenly a figure appears from a distance as I walk towards the shore.  It's a woman standing in front of the lake, with her back turned towards me.  Her gold colored dress hugs her tiny figure so perfectly, but there's something different about her.  Is she waiting for someone?  My heart quickens with each step, not knowing who this person is in front of me.

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A cold breeze takes over the damp air, ruffling the loose strands of golden locks draped around her neck, leaving brief flashes of shimmer before they rest on her shoulders.  My eyes follow the rustle of fabric on her dress as it lightly sways with the wind.  My ears are held captive by the rhytmic lapping of small waves on shore, glimmering in the moonlight like smooth facets of a diamond, gently caressing the pebbles beneath it.  I can feel the growing pace of my own heart as I become close enough to touch her.  Close enough for her delicate scent to reach my nose, which permeates every vein in my body.

This woman...she is doing things to me that I have not felt in a long time.  I don't even know what her face looks like, but her presence alone pulls me in.  A part of me wants to turn her around, but a part of me is afraid.  I'm afraid of what I may find.

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"You are not alone anymore.  I am here."  The most soothing voice escapes her lips as her eyes meet mine for the first time, showering my vision with the palest green emeralds sprinkled with flecks of gold.  They paralyze my ability to think...to move..or even speak.  They show me a glimpse of eternity, this never-ending spiral towards the edge of time, taking me back to a place that I have longed for but could never find.  My heart swells in a mixture of nirvana, sadness, longing and an aching need to hold her close.

"I'm so lost...so lost without you..." I choke on my own words as hot tears escape my eyes for the first time in God knows how long.  To feel this heat of moisture trickle down my face is unnerving, and I start to panic.  But the more I try to hold back, the more my heart feels like its going to explode.  So I finally surrender to her, to my own self.  I've stopped fighting and running away from this void I've tried to escape all my life.  I've learned early on that emotions are a sign of weakness, so I never allowed anyone, not even my own brother, to see me like this.

"How can you see
Into my eyes?
Like open doors
Leading you down

Into my core
Where I've become

So numb
Without a soul
My spirit sleeping

Somewhere cold
Until you find it there

And lead it back home"

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"Shhh...my darling, you are safe.  Know that I will always love you."  Her mouth slowly curves into a smile as her eyes glow under the moonlight, leaving me helpless and completely vulnerable.  The warmth of her hand caressing my face brings this peace within and I never want her to stop.  It's as if she can see into my very core, the real person inside, when stripped of his title, masks and mistakes.  In her presence, I am just Bradley Clemens.  The boy who grew up too fast, the man that broke Lyn's heart, the mortal being that just wants to find happiness.

"I love you too..." I close my eyes as these words escape me.  There is only one other person in this world that I said that too, and that was Lyn.  But with this woman,  I need to say it.  I need to hear it, as if my life depended on it. Like breathing.

"I must go." Her hand leaves my face, taking away the warmth, inviting the icy wind to take over my skin.

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"No, please stay! I need you!" This sense of overwhelming fear takes over me.  Just when I found her...this place...this sense of peace, of inexplicable joy...it's being taken away.  She cannot leave me like this, all alone in this strange world, in the dark.  She cannot possibly make me this fucking happy, tell me she loves me, then leaves! Why did I even have to meet her?  How can I possibly move forward, knowing she's going to leave an even larger hole in my heart?

Everything about this place, this moment, feels familiar and strangely frightening.  The timelessness of the dress she's wearing, this green ruffled silk shirt underneath my suede suit, the black fedora hat on my head, the way she speaks.  Even the red farmhouse behind us looks familiar, as if I've seen it before.  This lake...her eyes...

"Then come back to me, William. Come back to me..."

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"No, don't go!! Don't leave me! Please!!" I find myself screaming at the top of my lungs, my heart racing a million miles a minute, as tears and sweat run down my flushed face.  This woman...her eyes...her scent...I need to find her.  I need to go back to that place.  Who is she? How do I know her? Why did she call me William? Why did she say 'come back to me'?  I even try to go back to sleep, but it's impossible.  I keep seeing her face in my head, her pale green eyes, her voice, the feel of her warm hand against  my skin...like a piece of heaven...like Lyn.

Lyn...the lake...Appaloosa Plains...the woman said 'come back to me'...

This has to be a sign.  First, with Adam telling me not to give up on Lyn.  Then the woman in my dream telling me to come back to her, at the lake where I last saw Lyn.  The red farmhouse.  What could all this mean?  All I know is that I need to find answers.  I need to do something. I cannot just sit idly and wait for my life to pass me by.

"Wake me up
Wake me up inside
Can't wake up
Wake me up inside
Save me
Call my name 

And save me
From the dark"

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I get this crazy urge to go on the internet and search for a red farmhouse by that same lake in Appaloosa Plains, to if it even exists.  I find no matches.  As soon as I add "rental" to my search, a listing appears.  Goosebumps radiate all over my body when I click on the link.  It shows a picture of the exact same house I saw in my dream, right by the lake.  It is the exact same shade of red, in the exact location, with the exact architectural style.

But nothing could have prepared me for the description of the house.  I nearly fall off my chair when I find out that it's available for rent...and on the same street as Lyn's house.  This is insane.  I can't possibly go down there, can I? Especially after she told me to leave when I last saw her.  I know I should stay out of her way and let her live in peace, but a part of me feels this need to go back.  How can I ignore the signs pointing in her direction?

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"Regina? Can you transfer my appointments to Dr. Nagayama in the next two weeks? I've going to be at  Wolfson's Hospital in Appaloosa to do seminars." I can't believe I'm going through with this.

"Sure, Dr. Clemens.  I'll take care of that for you."

"Thanks a lot.  See you when I get back." I let out a deep breath as I hang up the phone.  Every pore in my body is tingling in anticipation of what I'm about to do.  I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing, but my gut tells me not to ignore this feeling.  My hands are shaking.  My heart is pounding.  But I have never felt more alive.

If there's even a small chance that Lyn still loves me, I'm going to fight for her.  I'm going to fight for the only woman I've ever loved.

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"Now that I know 
What I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me 

And make me real
Bring me to life"


*Copyright 2013 Lyn C.S.*
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"Bring Me To Life" by Evanescence
Video by: LeVampireCat

29 comments:

  1. Well, you're a shithead, Brad, but still ... I say yes, go for it. That's what forgiveness is all about, right? So you're not perfect. Who is?

    I still maintain that Luke would be better for Lyn. However, it looks like he's the one always destined to be forever on the outside of those two.

    It's great to see another update! :D

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    1. Hey MyPal, it's great to see you again! Haha Brad a shithead. I think he's been called every name in the book, but he simply won't go away. He's becoming an integral part of this story. He has been from the beginning but the more I write from his point view, the more pieces start to come together.

      I agree, he's very flawed, but at least he's willing to give it a shot. Although there's a chance that Lyn might chase him off with a shotgun if he shows up at her door again. But we'll see. lol

      I'm finally getting in the groove of the story again and excited about about getting back into my update schedule. I think doing them biweekly will help a lot as far as time.

      I'm also slowly catching up with everyone else's stories and I hope to get to yours soon. Thanks for reading!

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    2. Lol. I thought that he'd been called everything under the sun, but I still thought I'd throw that in to make me feel like I've contributed. :)

      Well, best of luck to him then. It all really comes down to Lyn, doesn't it? Shotgun -- LMAO!!! Oh that would be so awesome. >:)

      Wonderful! It would be fantastic to see more updates! Real life happens, though, and we all understand that. Also, it just happens that sometimes we got through these dry spells where nothing happens in the stories. IMHO, I think it may be better to have nothing instead of crap that's below par. :) Biweekly sounds nice.

      Eh, catch up if you wanna. A Moment in Time, the vampire one, is on hold until I finish it so I don't back myself into a corner again. *shudders* (the problem with having a definite-set ending I want to achieve) My most popular one is A Story With No Title (crazy title, what was I thinking! lol), and that one gets updated most frequently.

      Looking forward to more!

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    3. Hahahaha your contribution!! I love it! It's funny how everyone wants to get their kick in too, towards Brad's balls. lol I don't blame them at all! Yes, it all comes down to Lyn's decision if she wants him in her life or not. It would have been better for him to give her some time to heal and get settled with her life, but he couldn't wait, especially after that dream. He felt that the signs were all pointing towards Lyn.

      After I posted this update, it was a relief to know that I still have a little over a week to work on Ch. 9 from Heat. It makes a HUGE difference when I don't feel rushed. Usually I end up waiting til the last minute, pulling an all-nighter but run out of gas at the end of the chapter. I find that its actually better for me to write portions at a time, then continue the next day. It took me two days to write this one, and it wasn't as tasking. But I agree, its better to not update if your heart isn't into it.

      I do the same thing. I plan out my chapters and try to have an idea of how it will end. It helps me stay focused with the storyline and the roles of the characters. It's easy to get sidetracked and veer away from the plot. I actually love that title! It's unique :) Since you're putting A Moment In Time on hold, I may just check the other story out since your updates are current.

      It will probably take me a few weeks to get competely caught up with everyone's stories but I'm getting there. :)

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    4. Hm, who knows how much time is enough time? It could be that the longer he lets her stew and then eventually get over him, the harder time he'll have getting her back. Maybe strike while the iron is hot.... even if that iron just might explode in your face. interesting visual. Still... *goes back in mind to when Luke beat the shit out of Brad* ahhhh.... *makes bubble bath* :D

      Tackling ADD all my life, I totally understand how feeling like you DON'T have to do something just encourages you to do it. (said in reference to your feeling of relief) If I feel like I *have* to get something done, the slower it gets done, if at all.

      My problem with AMiT is that I strayed in the tiniest detail about a secondary character.... and it gave me a butterfly effect. I want my ending, and I want my ending just the way I want it. (why does that make me think of the queen of hearts in Alice in wonderland?) (MY way lol)

      Don't sweat it. I just think you'd enjoy the new one better since I'm guessing you have the hopeless romantic in you like I do. :)

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    5. You make a good point...strike while the iron is hot even if it explodes in his face. lol I love that analogy! One mistake Jesse made was leaving Emma, and she went on to marry someone else. If Luke learns anything this time around, it will be to not let that happen again. Hahahaha Luke beating the shit out of Brad..I know everyone got a kick out of that.

      I think I'm the opposite of ADD. I think I have mild autism. lol I can only focus on one thing at a time, I suck at multitasking! So I usually put all my focus on one thing before I move on to another. But YES, when I feel like I HAVE to do something, it feels like a chore. And chores are no fun!

      The good thing is that you caught yourself just in enough time to realize that you strayed, and you were able to regroup. That's the advantage of writing chapters ahead of time, at least you are able to modify things before you release. Well, its your story and you end it the way you want to! :)

      YES I am a hopeless romantic. Guilty as charged. lol

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  2. I really had hope for a moment that he might change, might do the right thing. Love it, like always, hope I don't have to wait another few months for the next one. You disappeared on us AGAIN, hope you stick around this time ,Brad, not so much.

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    1. Hi AddyKat, it's great to hear from you! I think Brad is starting to realize the affect of his actions on people. Well, at least he appears that way. Doing the right thing is still new to him, but telling Lyn's family what happened was a big step in that direction. Only time can tell if he will change for good or if he'll go back to his old ways.

      Sorry about disappearing again, but know that I've been thinking about you guys and this story. I'm going to be doing biweekly updates from now on so I'm hoping that will help me stay consistent with the extra time. Plus I actually need to know how this story ends, it haunts me even when I'm away. lol

      I'm hoping to catch up on your story soon! Thanks for reading!

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  3. Finally you are back please stay around this time :) Anyway Brad is going to fight for Lyn good about time. Will he get her back I'm not sure but I think the fact he hurt her effected him.
    When that patient came on to him and he turned her down I think that was a good step for him. As he keeps saying it's Lyn he wants.
    After all he has done there is a part of me that would like to see them together and another part not. If Brad does fight for her may I suggest groveling is in order. :)

    Great update :)

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    1. Hi Lckygirl! It's great to hear from you! I'm hoping to stick around this time as well :) I agree, he does realize that he hurt her. Is it a good idea for him to come near her in Appaloosa? Not sure. And I'm not sure how Lyn will react when she sees him. But him dreaming of Emma was a sign, as well as finding that the red farmhouse is available for rent. So we will see how this one goes! lol

      I agree, his turning the patient down was a big step and it shows that he might be ready for something more meaningful. Or at least, want something more than just raunchy sex with some random girl. Yes, he is realizing it's Lyn he wants, and he's going to go after her.

      I know what you mean about having mixed feelings about them getting back together. Lyn is developing a strong friendship with Luke, and he may be the better man for her, on top of their past life connection. But he left. :( I know he did it for Lyn's best interest but now it's leaving room for Brad to come back.

      Haha YES he's gonna have to do lots of groveling and ass-kissing to get back into her lie. Thanks for reading!

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  4. *SHE'S ALIVEEEEEEEEE* (disables creepy voice)

    You know it is ssoooooooooooooo hard to concentrate on reading a chapter when the first picture contains the douche! I mean, I believe in forgiveness, but I won't forget and I still say death to Brad's penis! I changed my views, yay! I'm aiming lower now!

    So he's on the path of change, good for him! What's up with the dream and the house in Appaloosa? Or did you talk about it already? I'm sorry, I wasn't lying when I said I was having a hard time concentrating on reading...

    Glad your back Lynny! :)

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    1. No, wait I just remembered the dream Lynn had...
      Ugh, she needs Luke, that's what she needs, period!

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    2. Jean-Marie!!! So good to see you again!! Haha you are crazy with your "disables creepy voice". lol I can always count on you to leave the liveliest comments. :) You know, I had you in mind when I wrote this chapter. I know how much you despite him, even with the last chapter. So I'm not surprised that you found it hard to concentrate. lol I don't expect for anyone, not even Lyn to forgive, let alone forget what Brad did. I think he's realizing that he lost people in his life that care about him, and he's trying to change.

      But we'll see if his progress is really genuine. We know it won't happen overnight but his decision to go back to Appaloosa may also backfire on him if Lyn isn't ready. And that will ruin any chance at a second chance with her. But at least he has the balls to fight for her right?

      I'm happy to be back :) I'm hoping to get caught up with your story soon. Thanks for reading JM!

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    3. Crap, it won't let me reply directly to your second comment. lol Haha yes, Luke needs to step up and help her stay strong when Brad comes back. Better yet, go back to AP! But he left. :(

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    4. That would be so sweet for Luke to be there when Brad shows his mug. I doubt that would happen.... I'm just throwing it out there.

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    5. Anything's possible :) Stay tuned!!

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  5. Are you fucking kidding me??? Seriously instead of giving her time letting her have some peace after what he did to her he's gonna go and make things even harder??? No good selfish son of a bitch.

    He thought about sabotaging her residency---he fucking thought about trying to tank her attempt at a new life- ASSHOLE MOVE!!!! Now you are going there to be her neighbor? Seriously. That is wrong. What he needs, what he wants....that's what got him in trouble in the first place! Not thinking of her then fucking her sister and you are still trying to fuck her over by still being selfish.

    You can't fight for what you threw away jackass. UGH

    So pissed.

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    1. Awww, sorry Mica, I didn't mean to make you pissed :( It's funny, I wrote this chapter trying to show Brad's softer side and the subtle signs that he's changing, but I had no idea I would get this reaction from you! lol When I write, I am completely in character, so it makes sense when I read it. But I had no idea readers can see it from a completely different angle!

      But I see your point! He should have stayed out of her way and let her have some peace, at least, gave her some time to sort things out and heal. He could also have given the recommendation over the phone but he hesitated. On top of going back to AP and staying at the house down the street from her. Um yeah...how is he gonna pull this off? I swear, Brad has a mind of his own, and even when I try to redeem him, he still comes off like a douche. lol And I agree, he seems only concerned about his own needs and wants. I'm not sure he realizes what a serious move this is, and how it will affect Lyn. It's quite a risk.

      On the other hand, I know Luke left because he thought it that was best for Lyn, but...he left, just like Jesse. :( When she really needed him.

      HUGS, Mica! Thanks for reading!

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  6. Even though I have a feeling Brad is "Supposed" to be involved in what's coming, I don't think it can lead to anything good. These flashes they're seeing of a past that they may all be doomed to repeat...or have a chance to change, they're all just destined to come together in Appaloosa to play this out.

    I just have to say that Brad is a colossal douche for not giving Lyn that recommendation! He knows she can't come back, and of course she needs to work. Just one more way he can mess her up. He came clean to her family & turned down a completely inappropriate bj at work, and he thinks this makes him a good guy, and in the next breath, he screws her over yet again.

    Run, Lyn! Run fast, run far!

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    1. Jilly, I agree, they seem destined to come together in Appaloosa. First with Lyn moving there, then Brad running into her at the hospital, then Luke returning Nikki to her, on top of the dreams/past life flashbacks. Then Luke left and now Brad is going back. Things are coinciding, and they will be compelled to repeat the same patterns if they don't learn from their previous lives.

      You are right, there was no need for him to hesitate about giving her that recommendation, knowing she needs that opportunity. He thought about it, but in the end, he felt the need to weigh the pros and cons. He may have a good reason, but maybe not. But yes, after a series of good decisions, he seems to mess it up by not helping Lyn out. I guess change won't happen overnight.

      Haha Lyn already did run. Where else can she go? Thanks for reading!

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  7. I am so glad you told me about chapter 34 Memoirs being up. I just read it and I think its your best work yet. I have been following your story for the longest time now and when I saw there were no updates for the longest time I didn't know if something happened to you or not. Well anyways im still doing well as always. Im glad you haven't given up on your stories. keeep in touch wild child.

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    1. Hi Tom, it's great to hear from you! Thank you for the kind words, I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter! Yes, you have been following my story since Pets came out remember? Over a year now. And I'm grateful that you still do :) Did you get Seasons yet? I just got it, played around for a bit but I really like it! It adds so much realism to the game and I love how they tell you what temperature it is outside. On top of umbrellas when it rains. lol University came out yesterday too, are you getting it? I've been waiting for ages for this, I loved it in Sims 2. But I heard people are already experiencing issues.

      I'm glad you're doing well! Have you been doing a lot of simming lately? I'm going to be updating both stories biweekly now, so that will give me more time to finish each chapter. Before I used to update every week and it just became too hard to maintain. I'll be working on Heat this week so Ch. 9 should be posted next Wednesday :)

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  8. First off, I'm so happy you're back!:)
    Secondly, I still don't like Brad but something in this chapter made me feel a little warmer towards him (He'll never be Luke and I hope he comes back into the story soon;)) I wonder who the girl is? Didn't Lyn and Luke have the same dream?
    I'm glad Brad is turning girls down as he keeps saying he still loves Lyn, but then he should have turned them down while he was with her.
    I really enjoyed this and I can't wait for the next chapter, glad you're back:)

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    1. Clairey!! I'm just as happy to see you as well! Haha I don't think anybody really likes Brad, that's a given especially after what he did. But the last four chapters coming from his point of view really gave me an insight into who he is and where he comes from. I agree, something about this chapter gave a glimpse into a softer side of him, with hopes that he will change for the better. And now that he's going back to Appaloosa, you will see his connection to the town as well.

      The girl is actually Emma (Lyn in a past life, the woman that Jesse (Luke's past life) left in Ch. 28). Emma also has a connection to William (Brad in a past life). You will see why he had that dream of her in the next few chapters. And yup, Lyn and Luke had similar dreams/past life experiences. I agree, Brad should have been faithful from the beginning, and he wouldn't be in the mess he's in now. But I guess he had to learn the hard way..unfortunately it was at the expense of Lyn's heart. :(

      I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter! Ch. 9 from Heat should be ready next Wednesday, so stay tuned! You will see Luke again. :) Speaking of which, you are right, Brad is no Luke. lol Thanks for reading Clairey! HUGS!!

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  9. WOW... ok, so my eyes now hurt a little from reading the entire thing all day today But I think the whole story is so good... So much going on but you can still follow what's going on, and I love the little updates at the beginning of the chapters too, very helpful


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    1. Hi Ivorybutterfly, welcome to my blog! Thank you for checking out my story and the kind words, I'm glad you are enjoying it so far! Wow..you read the whole thing in one day, I'm honored! Yes, there's a lot going on and I hope it's not too hard to follow.

      You know, the summaries in the beginning of the chapter are more to help me recap what happened in the previous chapter, to get me in character mode. lol It is especially helpful after coming back from hiatus and I need to reconnect with the story again. But I'm glad it is helpful to readers as well! I love it when they do that with my favorite t.v. shows, so I figured..hmm..I should do that here too. lol

      Thanks again for reading!

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  10. Brad IS a shithead and off he goes to Apaloosa to ruin whatever happiness Lyn has managed to find. Nice to see an update! I can't wait to see her reaction when he moves into the house on her street!

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    1. Hi Lauren, it's good to see you again! LOL you and Mypal share the same sentiment about Brad. He didn't appreciate Lyn until he lost her and he's more determined now to fight for her. It's quite a risk on his part to move right down the street from her but at least he's taking a chance. Her reaction can go either way.

      But yes, it's a bit of a selfish of him to disturb whatever peace she has right now. And that's why he's Brad. lol

      Thanks for reading Lauren!

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  11. Kind of conflicted here,I so want Luke and Lynn together but it looks like that's not happening. I'm still pissed at Brad, he was an ass to Lyn. I know he's had a rough life but she didn't deserve any of what he did to her. I will have to wait and see what happens i guess=), good to see you back=)

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